The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me… To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified. (a, 3)
On February 27, I shared Mbulelo’s story of being healed from the grief of his first born child. Now I’d like to take the opportunity to share this story from Pulane’s perspective in her own words.
In April 2009, I discovered that I was pregnant with our first born child after trying for exactly a year. The pregnancy progressed well until my 2nd trimester when I was diagnosed with an infection. I started on antibiotics and treatment, but the infection kept coming back. One day when I was 7 months along, I was a bit concerned because I couldn’t feel the baby moving. I asked a few people who had some experience and most of them assured me that it was normal. This went on until the following day, I decided to consult as I was getting worried. Upon my arrival the doctor put me on the sonar machine and by the look on his face I could tell something was wrong, he then confirmed that there was no heartbeat. My baby was gone.
While I was going through this loss I wanted to die. It felt like the pain in my heart would never go away. I was confused as to how could my body give up on this gift that I, we had been looking forward to for over a year.
I was confused as to how can God give me this child and let me carry her for 7 months only to let her die. I was looking forward to seeing her grow and run around in the house. I was hurt thinking that some babies are born at 6 months and they survive.
I started to attend a group of grieving parents and siblings. The group helped to know and notice that I am not alone, I also realized that there must be a bigger picture or story for me to go through this phase. I realized that even though I was going through pain it wasn’t God’s plan for me to suffer for the rest of my life. Yes, what I just went through was painful and unimaginable, but there was a life after this loss. Of course this didn’t happen overnight because after some months, I would still feel pain thinking my baby could have been 4 months or it has been months and I haven’t conceived yet.
THE SAGA CONTINUES
One week during the month of June 2010 I thought I was late for two weeks but on the 3rd week I started to bleed. When I went to see the doctor, he said my womb was enlarged which means it was growing but then there was nothing. I had miscarried again.
Then September of 2010 I noticed that I was 2 weeks late and had contracted an allergic reaction.
I went to the doctor for a checkup and she told me that I was pregnant. I was in a bit of a shock and was a bit scared of the past repeating itself. But thank God an old friend of mine had given me this book called, “Supernatural Child Birth”.
I began to gather prayer partners and see this journey as war. The book helped me with memory verses and words to speak against fear and physical symptoms that tried to steal my focus. Now I remember some of the things I used to do were really strange, (or rather prophetic acts) ” I would take a big knife and start to confess Heb.12:,4, and literally cut the enemy into prices”.
It was one of the greatest fights of my life and by the grace of God and the support I received from my prayer partners, in May 2011 I gave birth to a healthy baby girl, our Joy was complete (thus we named her Vuyolwethu).
Then in 2012 God increased our “gladness” when Yolisa was born. In 2016 the Gqeba family had multiplied and was complete when Zenande was born.
We know God as a healer, and embrace physical healing. But oftentimes, we don’t consider the magnitude of emotional healing. This is just one of countless stories of how God can heal the wounded soul. How great is our God!!!
I love how God restored and completed their joy, increased their gladness and multiplied their family. He gave them the beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness! I personally know them as trees of righteousness planted by the Lord, and for this we glorify Him!
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